So I’m at the half-way mark towards my next milestone birthday in August. I decided to Google mid-life crisis to see if it was really such a thing. I’m definitely not having a crisis, but it’s highly likely that I could be experiencing an episode.
What I have noticed is that some of the goals that I’ve had for a long time like having my own clothing line or opening a retail shop seem less attractive to me these days. Last month I remember coming to the realization that I would much rather work in ministry than do any of the creative things that I’ve been working towards for the last 25 years. The very idea that those goals that have been so much a part of who I am could be sidelined so easily was astonishing but that’s exactly how I felt…I feel.
These days I have a strong desire to see the world. Top of mind these days is the strange idea of moving to Istanbul of all places. Actually I would love to live and work and fellowship there. Yep, Istanbul…highly suspect coming from someone who has zero desire to go anywhere remotely near the middle-east. Until last Fall, London was my destination-of-choice for places to live abroad. Until last Fall I didn’t even really know where Istanbul was. Today I can tell you it’s history, political climate, religious makeup, percentage of the population with mobile phones, name several Turkish TV stars, and introduce myself in Turkish. Heavily tilting the wheel in Istanbul’s favor was a Google search last week for Pentecostal churches which turned up several Christian churches thriving in Istanbul which I didn’t think was possible in a majority Muslim nation. Yep…I found my tribe there!
If you’re 40-ish and have been feeling out-of-sorts check out these signs to see if they apply to you. If they do, know you are not alone. It’s just part of the normal process of growing wiser.
- Desiring to quit a good job.
- Unexplained bouts of depression when doing tasks that used to make you happy.
- Changing or investigating religions, churches or new age philosophy.
- Change of habits. Activities which used to bring pleasure now are boring. Unable to complete or concentrate on tasks which used to be easy.
- Excessively buying new clothes and taking more time to look good.
- Wanting to run away to somewhere new.
- A desire or obsession to get into physical shape.
- Irritability or unexpected anger.
- Leaving (Mentally or Physically) family or feeling trapped in current family relationships.
- Looking into the mirror and you no longer recognize yourself.